I am learning patience. Still.
11 months since Brian's cancer diagnosis. 10 months since his surgery. 6 months since the end of his radiation treatments. He has come a long way. He can walk on the treadmill again and drink liquids. Haven't used the tube feeds for a long time. Things are much better than they were, and yet things still seem a long way from where they used to be.
Is this the new normal? A constant question, how much better will things get? I feel deep down that he will continue to improve and still has lots of improvement potential. Yet I realize that he may never be back to the same energy level he was before all this started. So I continue to take life one day at a time. People ask, "What are your plans for vacation?" and I just shrug and say, "Depends on how Brian is feeling." I plan but I am emotionally prepared to change at a moments notice.
I guess that is the gift this whole experience has brought to me. I am not wed to the future, I am more comfortable in the ebb and flow of here and now.
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